My life is a bit discombobulated right now. Work is a little slow, money is tight, & love is lost. I'm trying to sort through everything - you know, figure things out. I feel like it's time for a change for the better. I need to get back into my happy shoes & inspire myself.

One of the things I would like to do is lose all this weight I gained within the past 3½ years. I went from 135lbs to 165lbs. I've constantly be talking about losing this weight, but never really doing anything about it. Over the weekend, I began exercising. I decided to start off slowly by doing 30 minutes on my step machine every other day, then pick it up to 1 hour until I can do 1 hour/day. I don't know how long I can keep it up, but I will definitely try. I want to say goodbye to my double chin & beer belly. Beer bellies are just not attractive on a lady.

Another thing I need to do is clean up the apartment & pack up my things. I'm moving in with my parents for a while. I have to help my dad clean out the basement, because they started using the space for storage. I really don't like moving, but what can I do?

Since I'm on my own, I have to start saving money for an apartment, which means I'll need another job. I can't decided if I should expand my dog walking service or get a new career. I love dog walking, my dogs, & my clients are so nice. It would be hard to let go, but if I can't sign up 5 more clients in the next few months, I may have to look for something else to do - maybe a night job.

I definitely need to start sewing again. I have so many new ideas & I'm ready to get back into designing. Once I move & have everything set up, that'll be my 1st priority. Maybe if I throw out all my store-bought clothes, it'll force me to sew.

Lastly, I need to sort out my feelings. I believe that when I start doing things for myself again, making myself happy & doing things I enjoy, I can start to love again. I'm hoping that's the solution to my ♥ problems. I'm hoping that I'm not making a mistake. I can't go back to being unhappy with myself for the sake of ♥. I don't know why or even how I ended up doing that. I guess ♥ does make people do crazy things.