So, It Begins...
In the end credits, I credited the song "The Letter" by Naomi + Zach, but I didn't use the song in this episode. I was too lazy to correct it. The song used in the opening credits is "Entry 23" by Naomi + Zach.
In the end credits, I credited the song "The Letter" by Naomi + Zach, but I didn't use the song in this episode. I was too lazy to correct it. The song used in the opening credits is "Entry 23" by Naomi + Zach.

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*UPDATE* - New "Into Me" plot coming soon! Live action videos using Sims 2 program & YouTube! Keep checking back for news.

For the next few weeks, I'm just going to talk about the past missing months of my life. Things are pretty normal around here, so there isn't much to write about.
The photos below were taken on September 9th around 6a. The night before, Bren was on set in Lincolnshire for a commercial shoot. I think he was working the boom or something... The company hooked him up with a hotel room at the Marriott Resort, so he invited me over for a mini-bar party. It was a beautiful evening, because the sky never turned pitch-black; it remained a dark blue color all night.


Where has the time gone? I feel like I've been sleeping for weeks...
Since my slumber, time has changed my surroundings. Brennan moved back into the apartment & we've been hanging out more often than usual. I think we're both at a point where we want to be with someone, but don't want to be in a relationship. So, we're with each other; hanging out, traveling, smoking, drinking, laughing, arguing, driving each other crazy... You know. All that good schtuff.

I went to PMU the other night for coffee & a sandwich when Chase sat down in the seat across from me.
"Hey," he said.
"Oh. Hi! What're you doing here?" I was surprised to see him there.
"I'm here with Jasmine," he motioned toward the front of the cafe. I saw her sitting at a table by herself. "Look... I'm sorry about what I said the other week. I was drunk & stupid. It didn't have anything with you."
"It's OK, Chase. I was upset by what you said, but when I was done being pissy, I actually appreciated that you said it," I told him. "Thank you."
"Uh... You're welcome?" he let out a laugh, though he was confused.
"Everything going well with you & Jasmine?" I asked.
"Yeah. She's so fuckin' hot & the sex is amazing! She's an animal in bed," his face lit up. I found his excitement endearing.

I miss him... Though, if you asked me, I'd deny it. I miss his warm embraces. His smirk & smile. Our late night talks & lazy Sundays. I think back to the beginning, when we used to look at each other with curious eyes. Had we known the outcome of our perilous meeting, would we have continued on? Would I have taken the chance & enclosed him into my world?
How I hate to miss him... How I hate to have memorized his walk, his stance, his voice, his face... I hate that I have acquired his bad habits. I hate that I'm becoming the person he wished I were. I hate his absence in my heart. I hate his silence to my calls.
All I wanted was an ear. A shoulder. A friend... Be careful for what you wish for. So, he brought me down from my clouded fantasy & gave me exactly what I asked for... & Now, I wish I could take it all back.

ACK! Too many options & decisions to make! My brain is swirling! So, Brennan & I checked out a few options of what I can do to afford school, especially Columbia College. I've scheduled an appointment to speak with a counselor there after next week. Hopefully, she'll be able to help me figure out what to do about paying my tuition. I'm thinking of attending the school during the Spring 2005 semester. I can't decide on which to major in: Music Marketing or Film Management. They're both part of the Arts, Entertainment, & Media Management Department. I could major in one & minor in the other, I guess, but it all depends on my financial situation. I need to make some money!

Brennan stopped by when I came home from the play. Chase told him what happened last night, so Brennan thought to come over to check up on me. We sat on the couch & discussed what had happened, then he pulled me in his arms & hugged me.
"You know that he just said those things, because he's worried about you, don't you?" Brennan asked me, kissing the top of my head.
"Yeah, but he didn't have to be so condescending. He could've expressed more concern over my situation rather than making it sound like I was his problem," I sighed. "The way he said it... You would've never spoken to me that way."
"Yes, but I know you better than he does," Brennan spoke with a smile.

Last night, I was so disappointed in Chase. I cried, because I knew, for certain, that our friendship was never going to be the same. Maybe it's from the influence of his new girlfriend or that he's always felt this way about me. Whatever the reason, I realized that things had changed between us.